This blog will be defunct.
I've waited once. Waited twice. No longer. No longer.
It's like history repeating itself. And I don't think I want it to keep repeating, like how I know it would. You've just gotta move on.
Move on.
So I've got the 'go ahead' from my parents. They're pretty supportive of it. Yup. I think I've really got to
Thank God for the things that seem to be falling into place. Things that I wrote off from my life
months ago, I'm starting to make changes now. This just goes to show, sometimes we
think we know what we want. But actually, we know nuts. Oh well, there is always room for improvement, for change. And we should always look forward to New Things.
It's scary though. Never in my dreams have I even considered this. Come to think of it. Sometimes I think I plan my life too soon.
At one point. I made this plan for myself: To get married around 25. Have 2 kids by 30. And my husband must know how to dance. And we will dance to Beautiful on our wedding day.
And you're probably thinking, "Oh my God how
NAIVE she is!"
Yea well, I'm actually thinking that I was pretty naive.
Because right now, I'm starting to think that I shouldn't set myself limits. Because I do want to keep my options open. And find the perfect one to spend my life with in the end. Not now though.
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Disclaimer: If you think you might hate me for saying what I have to say here. Don't read this. No it's not harsh or anything. I just feel that it's something I have to say to you at least one more time. Read it with an open mind. Please. And if you're angry, don't keep quiet. Talk to me about it. Please.~*~It's difficult trying to talk to someone when he wasn't thinking along the same lines as me. But don't judge me please. I just wanted you to see what I've been seeing. I wanted to be with some one I could talk to about anything and everything. To exchange ideas, thoughts, opinions. But I guess the things you talk about and I talk about are completely different. I wanted you to have dreams, to think bigger, to make your own money instead of going through day by day doing nothing much. You kept using army as an excuse. But think of how much more you could have done with all these months.
8:46:00 PM
Met up with the Cheryls for lunch today! I think it was great to catch up after like DAMM long. And Breko is Good. =D
Theses were taken with Ah Tan's camera. Ah Ong's camera hates me. And omg PLEASE take my uglyyyyy photos off your facebook! My eyes all not open properly. Yup so we're meeting again next week. Zouk night! Haha.. Cheryls' Night Out. Goodie!
12:35:00 AM
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Okay I'm not gonna harp on that matter anymore. Finito.
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Samba's starting to take shape though, but I HATE it at this moment!! Omg there's soooooo many things to do. And sometimes I feel like I'm doing it, but actually I'm not and it's DAMM frustrating.
August comp. Venue has been moved to Batu Pahat instead of KL. I hope it's safe too.
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It's amazing. I woke up at 10.10am today!
10:40:00 AM
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Because now it seems it doesn't affect you at all.
Yeah maybe I should just forget about it and move on.
10:21:00 AM
Monday, July 14, 2008
4 days now.Maybe it's for the better. But maybe it's not.No one can predict the future right.You really can't blame me for being upset.When I look at you and you seem fine.Why can't you just tell me.How much you miss me.How much I mean to you.Why can't you just tell me.~*~Let the rain fall down and wake my dreamsLet it wash away my sanityCause I wanna feel the thunderI wanna screamLet the rain fall downI'm coming clean.
10:17:00 AM
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
THIS is what they do to us ALL THE TIME:
And THIS is what we would like to do to them:
But we girls are just TOO nice la... BITE-SIZED CLUB UNITE!!!!! =D
Just for general info, the Bite-Sized Club consists of Caryn, Me, Melody, Ally. Bite-Sized and A Half consists of Iris, Shijiao & Teacher Sharon. =D Love you guys tons and truckloads!!
Do ignore the 2 idiots in yellow and dark blue t-shirt in the last photo.
8:56:00 PM
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Politics are really so dumb. All that Slander, and Dirty Games, and Rumours, and Rioting.
And all because of that, the KL competition on 23 August might be postponed or cancelled.
No this doesn't work well for me. Coz Kai's enlisting on 16 September. Well then, I'm sure there will be many more competitions to go for when he's done serving the nation. Arghs. Argh argh arghs!
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Thinking of perming my hair after KL comp though. Hahahah.. The following are excerpts from Melvin & Daryl after hearing my plans on that.
"Then Kai will go, 'Please Sir! Permission to stay in Camp longer Sir!' "
"Haha then when the officer asks, 'Who wants to do Guard Duty over the weekend?' Kai will be the first one, 'ME ME ME!!!!'"
-_-
Ohhh come on. I don't think it's gonna be that bad!
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I loveeee Samba! =D
1:03:00 PM
Sunday, July 06, 2008
Sometimes the feeling is so intense it just wells up inside. It is when you ask youself why. Why do they seem so much more blessed.
Seem. I have yet to suppress this feeling of envy and identify it when it sneaks up unknowingly. And learn how to count my blessings in so many more ways.
Yea life is just the way it is. It's never fair. But have faith.
Have faith.
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1:45:00 PM
Friday, July 04, 2008
Maybe this is not how it's meant to be.
Nationals. It went pretty well. I had fun =) NPDS did really really good. Proud of you guys!
Next competition's in KL. 23 August. Go us.
This is the mood where so many people fade away from the world. Guess I woke up on the wrong side of the bed.
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We can't keep going back to where we started. We've just gotta kep moving on.
New things. New things.
9:48:00 AM
Thursday, June 19, 2008
I'M BLOGGING FROM MY NEW HOUSE!!
Well, not really new. It was my grandparents' old old old house. So it got renovated. And Yup it looks awesome now. Uh not with all the boxes though. We're still in the midst of unpacking.
The walk out to the bus stop is a solid FIFTEEN minutes. Yes please my lucky friends who have their own cars. Please do offer me a lift home if I happen to meet you. =D
Competition's next week. I am quite looking forward to it. Coz I think we have GREAT couples who'll do NPDS proud =) GO NPDS~!!!
AND YOU. If you have no ideas for presents for me for our 1 1/2 yrs. Go to askmen.com. I think that's the website. And yes I'll pretend to be surprised. Well at least you tried. Yupyup.
9:52:00 AM
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Moving house on Tuesday 17 June. I have a feeling on Tuesday morning I'll be frantically taping up the boxes with my stuff while the movers are walking in and out of the house. Just a peek, my room is a MESS. What with NPDS camp just over and the week before in Cameron and the running out of the house for tuition and dance prac ever since I stepped home. It is a nightmare.
We officially have a Bite-Size Club in NPDS now. Coined by Janani aka Jay. Made up of Me, Melody, Alicia, Iris and Shijiao. =) And we have the bikini babes too =) I want to go to the beach again soon.
Mambo Night this Wednesday. Whoo boy is it gonna be crowded.
4:10:00 PM
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
AND I GRADUATED FROM NP ON 28TH MAY 2008. Well Done Cheryl!!
Really want to thank you guys for being there. Your presence really meant the world to me =)
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Kai's enlisting in September.. I am extremely happy about that =D
11:35:00 AM
Friday, May 23, 2008
I could feel the dentist yanking in my mouth. I could hear the squelching of teeth ripping from gum. 15 minutes of "Why why why did I agree to this??!"
They LIE. So totally LIE.
They told me the anaesthetic would last till 2pm. BUT half an hour later it started to hurt like hell. The lips were numb, the gums' numbness was wearing off, and I was trying to swallow a painkiller with no feeling in my mouth. Subsequently, the gauzes were soaked, the painkiller hadn't kicked in, and I was drooling blood everywhere. THAT lasted for a very bloody 3 hours.
So now I have 4 big holes in my teeth. For the sake of a better profile.
And here's the lesson all of you should learn:
NEVER pull out 4 teeth at one go if you're not prepared for the consequences.
8:22:00 PM
Sunday, May 18, 2008
It could be the late nights out.
I slept for FIVE hours this afternoon. Claire came home at 12, watched a bunch of Gossip Girls, went to sleep, played the piano, watched Gossip Girls again, went to sleep a Second time, got up. And I was still sleeping.
In between, Christie left the house to go for tuition, came home 2 hours later. And I was still sleeping.
Awesomeness. I didn't know I could do that.
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Anyway today's a milestone. Parents are in Arizona for some reason, so we get the house to ourselves till Thursday. And the car.. THE CAR!!!! So i went hunting high and low for the car keys since they left on Thursday.. & I finally found it in a drawer. Drove down to church and back this morning with Christie in tow. And parked my car so SWEE-ly under the shade below my block. OMG I am so pro.
Yupyup that's definitely one for the books.
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Separate note. Kai & I are trying it out again. We'll see how things go from here.
8:43:00 PM
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Here am I, one week and 2 days later.
Fuck it. I don't want to be the one who keeps initiating this topic.
10:39:00 AM
